I can't sleep.
I feel really depressed.
Nothing new there.
I've been trying to correct my sleep cycle for a couple of days now, I know "a couple" of days isn't really much at this point but I thought, at least, with the early mornings I'd get early nights. But *NOOOOO! (*emphasis on that), I don't think I'm gon be sleeping for another few hours yet. I bet some of y'all be thinking that being online doesn't help and it doesn't. It really doesn't. But neither does lying in darkness, being flooded with thoughts and worries about everything, waiting for sleep to creep up. So...I kinda feel like being online is the slightly better option for me at the moment.
I bought a load of Wasabi Seaweed Thins today. You are probably all wondering (if anyone reads this lol) why I mention this... And the reason is...no reason. I just enjoy them. Plus, writing-even though it's just random shite-is saving me from boredom right now. Or depression. I think depression makes everything really boring, like all the colors have been sucked out of the world. It's like walking around with your head stuck in a thick foggy cloud. It really fucking sucks. Obviously, there are things you can do to make it a bit easier but sometimes or often, you just can't shake it off. It stays anchored in your chest and throat (or wherever you feel it) refusing to budge for the next few hours, weeks, months etc. Those times you just have to kinda ride out the wave, try not to let it overpower you. "Just keep swimming", as Dorey from Finding Nemo famously said.
I think I'm going to try and get some sleep now, this took a fair wee while write despite how short it is. I hope y'all are having a lovely day, evening, morning and night! :)
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